“Then You Win” — Overcoming Self-Doubt

First, they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”  –Gandhi

While exploring the edges of your creative callings, do you ever find yourself struggling with  the feeling that your life-purposes aren’t “good enough”?

I do. My callings probably won’t make anyone rich and in all likelihood won’t “save” the world. Sometimes I can’t find the meaning behind my inspirations and they seem childish, or daunting or silly. I fear that I shouldn’t engage with them.

It’s can be hard to persevere when the self-criticism comes howling.

Of course deep down I know these fears are rubbish, and I have come to trust that there is always a meaning behind my madness even if it is not obvious yet.

At times like these, I hold on to the idea that the gifts from my Muses are uniquely given to me, and therefore I have a responsibility to answer to them. Even if they’re “not good enough” — maybe especially if they’re “not good enough”.

If I say no, they may leave, looking for a more open heart and willing hands.

So instead of  saying no to my latest crazy inspiration, I am learning to say (with trembling voice) not just YES, but “hell yes!” then grab hold with both hands and plunge headlong into the darkness.

I dare you to join me.

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4 Responses to “Then You Win” — Overcoming Self-Doubt

  1. I struggle with this every day. For instance: I’ve been beating myself up over transitioning to being more of a blogger than someone who does original reporting. I keep asking “what value am I adding?” But you know what — I *like* having an excuse to be funny and snarky and say what everyone is thinking but the ossified neutrality of the Straight News voice doesn’t allow them to say. So maybe I should just be OK with that.

  2. yes1and says:

    It works for Jon Stewart :-).

  3. Ann miller says:

    All too familiar. Thanks for putting into words what I have felt many times.

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