While exploring the edges of your creative callings, do you ever find yourself struggling with the feeling that your life-purposes aren’t “good enough”?
I do. My callings probably won’t make anyone rich and in all likelihood won’t “save” the world. Sometimes I can’t find the meaning behind my inspirations and they seem childish, or daunting or silly. I fear that I shouldn’t engage with them.
It’s can be hard to persevere when the self-criticism comes howling.
Of course deep down I know these fears are rubbish, and I have come to trust that there is always a meaning behind my madness even if it is not obvious yet.
At times like these, I hold on to the idea that the gifts from my Muses are uniquely given to me, and therefore I have a responsibility to answer to them. Even if they’re “not good enough” — maybe especially if they’re “not good enough”.
If I say no, they may leave, looking for a more open heart and willing hands.
So instead of saying no to my latest crazy inspiration, I am learning to say (with trembling voice) not just YES, but “hell yes!” then grab hold with both hands and plunge headlong into the darkness.
I dare you to join me.